I am not gay. I am not the least interested in looking at men, young or old. For most of my life, I have been interested, as a young man, rabidly, in women (GG's as this column identifies) I have not been married, in fact I would call myself, unhappily single. My pursuit of the opposite sex was part sexual, and part family oriented. Many of my encounters were unhappy, some miserable and very few delightful, but I persevered. I was always envious of my friends who just had a natural appeal , and bed a bevy of Playboy types, while I struggled mightily.
About seven years ago, I was dragged to Bangkok, with an acquaintance and two of his buddies. While I sat terrified in my room across from Nana Plaza, the three of them quickly lached onto three amazingly hot freelancer GG's. How could they get this quality, considering we were all over 50 yrs of age ? After a couple of days of eating my meals in my room, they loaded me with half a beer (that's all it takes to make me light) and walked me the the Thermae Bar below Robinson's dept store. Amazingly, an early 20 something thai girl and I walked back to my room together . I was absolutely terrified ! She worked ever so hard to get me up and then quickly snapped a thai condom on my tentative member. I felt that this rubber band was emasculating me and I prompty lost all vigor. She began to cry, so I dutifully provide 4,500 baht compensation for my failure.
Having been made the fool, and light my daily rate for three days, I would only venture out to the nearby McDonalds, for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
After 33 hours of moderate to severe turbulence in my coach seat wafted constantly by the nearby toilet and prevalent diaper changes, I arrived back in my home town. I swore to whatever powers that be, that I would re-engage with the biography section at the local library, and begin a project that would occupy me constantly, gardening.
But loneliness is a hunger of sorts, so online dating was my next endeavor.\
I learned all to quickly, that six pack abs, and a Mercedes 550 were a prerequisite for uplifting contacts. Even with those essentials, the only responses I would get, were from the typical overweight,balding and desperate sources...just like me !
So,on my own, back I went to Toyland(Thailand)Terrified, I weathered on. I hooked up with expats who were of similar appearance, and then found that I could have up to 18 percent success if I followed certain rules...spend a lot of money, spend a lot of money, spend a lot of money. Thank goodness, half a beer seems to largely mask my desperation and loneliness to a large degree, so by wandering endlessly from 8:45 PM to 2 am every night, I would sometimes bring back a semi-willing partner, or a reasonably attractive profile. Watching other mongers (mongrels ?) hate that word, I found that there were others like me sitting in the back rows or furtively looking up from ringside, at the Coyote girls who would give them a second glance.
How many times would I be scorned once I arrive in my hotel room, or get marginal service, or be too overwhelmed to perform, but I got some great pictures, especially if I offered 500 baht over retail ! Great eye candy for the folks at home, but I knew the truth, I was usually, alone, lonely and miserable, surrounded by hosts of dudes getting it all with so little effort.
So one day, walking in Pattaya on soi 8 on my fourth visit, there stood a 5 foot 9 inch wonder, a sexifull ladyboy. She spoke English, now there is a novelty.
She was smiling at me, she acted interested in me and she smelled good ! I dared the un darable, and walked the walk of shame back to The Dynasty Hotel on Soi 13. I was positive that the front desk staff was outraged, that I stooped to this lowly trolling. But up to the room we went anyway. My terror prevented me from having any semblance of an erection, but it didn't matter, I was treated royally by my visiting angel. No disparaging words, as was my common fare from my GG endeavors, no rushing, no pleading for more than agreed, and she actually kissed.
I don't know about other mongers, but thai GG's don't kiss.
So after the many desparate, depressing, demeaning, expensive and unfulfilling experiences with thai women, I seek LadyBoys. I am rarely sad and lonely. I really don't give a flying fuck if the front desk staff disapproves of my action,
for I am happy with my choice.
So, here it is, my story. Any body else feel the same way as me ?
BTW...I am searching for Talisha. A woman like that can teach you a lot about yourself ! (John Saxon in Enter the Dragon )