Posted 21 July 2015 - 08:02 AM
In 2009 I asked the same question on another ladyboy forum.
I'd been surfing LB porn, and found myself curiously turned on. Prior, it had been only gg's for me. Like you Doc, no sexual attraction to males, and the thought of kissing one or having a big hairy leg rubbing against my own hairy leg was a turnoff. But....what was it about those chix with Dix I'd been admiringly? So, I asked the same "am I gay" question as you.
The members there were really friendly, as most are here, and suddenly I got a glimpse into a world I did not know existed:
The world of ladyboy admirers.
Most, though not all, tend to have straight histories and share the lack of interest in traditional stereotypical gayness....gay bars, cabarets, light-in-the-loafers behavior, Judy Garland, show tunes, etc.
I was conflicted about what it meant after the first time I'd spent an intensely passionate night with a ladyboy. i sucked her cock, my first time, and thoroughly enjoyed it. Then, I crashed the next day, and was overwhelmed with "uh oh, I'm a fag" type of thoughts. A lifetime's conditioning erupted into some intense shame-issues in the days to follow. Something changed, and it was like a discovery. A discovery that I knew I wasn't going to be prepared to vacate anytime soon. So, back to "am I gay?" And what to do.
I turned to this forum, and found that I wasn't alone. Made friends who I've spent time with in person, and who remain friends....and now, as others have said, "who cares?". I was called a fag when walking down the street with a ladyboy, while conventional gay dudes walking hand in hand were left alone. I heeded the advice about labels, and thought to myself "well, maybe. Who cares. I'm doing what I really want, and it's so pleasant that I don't care what people think". It was exhilarating.
Anyway, yeah, I like sucking ladyboy cock. I also have a gig girlfriend who knows about it, and who likes me anyway. She's cool, we're very close, and we also have a great sex life.
So, I don't really know what I am anymore. Except, happier, and with options.
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